Hey Ocean!
Welcome to Simon's world! Good to see new voices here. I notice you think Roller is confused. What I read in his/her post was that the "unconditional love" that the bible teaches is not in the KH, especially amongst the leadership. You say you learned that kind of love there? Your congregation must be unique from what I have seen in reading the posts from hundreds of Jw's and exjw's on the net.
Why don't you tell us more about your experiance as a Jonadab?
carmel