You grew up having a crappy childhood. You didn't gain any job skill, instead, in your youth, you went out in FS and started working at a retail store. 30 years later, you are working somewhere else, making about 5$ more than what you started working at when you are young. You go out in service when you can, but this is never good enough for the CO. You are drowning in debt and you are still waiting for the end to come, still waiting, yet faithful to Jehovah.
How's that?