The only comment I can make is....yes Terry. It happens to me sometimes for all of the reasons you stated. I will be 66 in less than 5 months and for the past couple of years I have realized that I am changing physically, and not for the better. I wonder what will be in the next few years not only physically but financially. Will I wind up in a senior "wharehouse" where I'm not really taken care of?
I see young families and think of the time I was in that position. My heart aches at times that I don't have a companion. Oh yes, I have a lot of friends and some of them are lady's. But I haven't met one that I want to be with permanently. At the end of the day, I'm always back in my apartment looking at four walls.
However I am very lucky to have a daughter who loves me and is always after me to move to Florida so I can be closer to her. Her reasoning "jokingly with tongue in cheek" is that I'm not getting any younger and if it comes to the point......she can't fly up to Pittsburgh to change my diapers.....so I need to be by her.
One thing I have to do is to spend more time thinking of all the good that has been and still is happening to me post WT. I'm a very lucky man. In the past 5 years or so, I have already lost friends who were younger than me to cancer, heart disease and other malady's.
It's just one day at a time!
HappyDad