Posts by dubstepped

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Just went over 20,000 downloads, maybe this will help someone new here ...

by dubstepped in

my original podcast where i told my story, this jw life, has now gone over 20,000 downloads.

it is a 9 part series that i put out last year and people continue to find it and listen.

if you have someone that needs help processing what they went through as a jw, if you have friends or family that don't understand that whole part of your life, then please have them listen to this.

dubstepped

My original podcast where I told my story, This JW Life, has now gone over 20,000 downloads. It is a 9 part series that I put out last year and people continue to find it and listen. If you have someone that needs help processing what they went through as a JW, if you have friends or family that don't understand that whole part of your life, then please have them listen to this. If it's you, then I hope that you listen.

When I told my story I wanted to do a couple of things. I wanted to have a sincere accounting of what I went through. I wanted to share it with others that I knew who were encouraging me to write a book. Since many of those people were never JWs, I made this specifically with the goal that anyone could connect to this and understand what we went through.

I've had people share this with their spouses/partners that didn't understand where they came from in life or why they had these residual issues from it. I just had a person yesterday tell me that "Mike made me feel more normal", one of the greatest compliments that I could get. I've had people tell me that they disassociated after listening. I've had people go from PIMI to PIMO and even help wake up spouses. I get lots of emails from people that it has helped. I have moved on to my next project which is the "shunned" podcast where I help people to tell their own stories, but I should put this one out there more because I get so many great emails from people that have listened and were helped.

So you can search for This JW Life on iTunes (Apple Podcasts), Google Play podcast, find it on other podcasts apps like Podbean or Podcast Republic, or stream episodes live from my site at www.thisjwlife.com . I truly hope that you listen or share and if nothing else maybe find some healing in processing your own story through it, even if I never personally hear from you.

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You won't believe this ... Jehovah's rich blessing has befallen me !!!

by dubstepped in

jw
friends

my dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, i know).

he was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me.

he died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything.

dubstepped

Well, if you're going to apostaneer, might as well make it special. I'm figuring out some new venues where I can spread the podcast to expand reach. Love the term "apostaneer". :)

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You won't believe this ... Jehovah's rich blessing has befallen me !!!

by dubstepped in

jw
friends

my dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, i know).

he was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me.

he died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything.

dubstepped

Well then, Satan did a better job of hooking me up than Jehovah ever did as a JW. Beggars can't be choosers, I'm good either way.

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Disfellowshiped- reinstated- damaged

by Damaged in

don’t know how i ended up here but no one who understands will listen, or any one who will listen doesn’t understand.

i grew up in the “truth”, i was baptised at 17 as it was encouraged by the elders.

i really didn’t understand what i was getting into.

dubstepped

@Damaged -

First, please disregard BlackSpirit. This person has come here with full blinders on, blinded by Satan and it's very sad. Perhaps in time something here will sink in and he/she will start to wake up to the realities of what was done to him/her. One can only hope.

Second, you have every right to be an emotional wreck. Those emotions are telling you something. They aren't for nothing but it is your body's way of telling you that something is wrong. It is. You sir have been the victim of conditional love, a weak love that is demonstrated by the cult that you've been in for so long. Love that can only bear up if people completely conform to one life set forth by uninspired men lest someone be shunned is not true love.

You are in a place right now where you are realizing that what you've believed in your whole life isn't what it proclaimed to be. It is falling short, and you're feeling that. Most of us here didn't go looking for something else. Many here started seeing things through events like yours that led to us waking up to the truth about "the truth". Once you wake up you can't go to sleep again.

It's painful to wake up one day and realize that everything you believed in had such ugly underpinnings. Then you start reading, start learning, and start looking with open eyes to the realities of the doctrines and it's tough to lose that faith. Then you apply the same rational thinking to things like the Bible itself and soon everything falls apart.

Everything in it's own due time though. And maybe your faith in the Bible survives. If it does, we can all still be friends. That's real love, not this weak conformist love. We don't have to agree. Even BlackSpirit deserves a measure of love. Nobody wants to see someone devote their entire life to lies. That's a sad existence.

So listen to what your intuition is telling you and start researching. JWFacts.com is a great place that uses Watchtower's own literature. The podcast This JW Life is my story of going through life as one of Jehovah's Witnesses and can help you take an honest look at things. Watch things like the John Cedars channel on youtube and start "making sure of the more important things" and testing these things you've been taught. Don't just believe something because you need it emotionally, or because it's convenient. You wouldn't buy something on Amazon just because it's there, you'd read reviews and check it out objectively. You've likely never done that with the teachings that you grew up with.

We are here for you. We are genuine caring people that aren't concerned about where you end up so long as it is well thought out and authentic for YOU. If that's to stay in the JWs, and you've really researched it with an honest and open mind without dismissing your feelings just because it's easier to shove them back down and soldier on, then good for you. Unlike Jehovah's Witnesses, we can be here for you either way if you're willing to have open discussions. We don't care what you've done or who you are. Come here with an open mind and see where you end up. Don't try to control it, go where your research takes you and keep searching for truth rather than being intellectually lazy and just assuming that you have it because someone told you it was true.

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You won't believe this ... Jehovah's rich blessing has befallen me !!!

by dubstepped in

jw
friends

my dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, i know).

he was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me.

he died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything.

dubstepped

Lol @stuckinarut! I'm all set for the apostate convention. I have lots of experience with giving experiences. Should I embellish it to say that I actually inherited millions and set all of the JWs in my former life free too? I mean really, what I said in the original post isn't enough. Surely we can fluff it up to be "more encouraging" to our brothers and sisters here.

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You won't believe this ... Jehovah's rich blessing has befallen me !!!

by dubstepped in

jw
friends

my dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, i know).

he was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me.

he died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything.

dubstepped

Thanks CAA! Yep, that's me. I'm the fearful leader of the podcast. Glad you like it!

Oh, I'm also the subject of This JW Life. That was my first podcast.

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You won't believe this ... Jehovah's rich blessing has befallen me !!!

by dubstepped in

jw
friends

my dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, i know).

he was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me.

he died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything.

dubstepped

My dad died a couple years back (not how you thought this would start, I know). He was an elder, and a very emotionally abusive father, well before the point where he ever shunned me. He died pretty much penniless, and never would buy life insurance or anything. Flat out refused. He and my mom got an inheritance when my grandparents died but squandered it. At the end they lived in a trailer park and at a point I drove by after his death and even the trailer was gone. Mom moved to some sort of low rent apartments where a bunch of JWs live (imagine that).

Anyway, apparently my mom sued the facility where dad was before he died. I don't know all of the details, but she sued for wrongful death/injury and won. My dad was in terrible health and chose to go off dialysis and to die, so I don't know how that all went down, but the bottom line is she won some money.

Just this week I posted a podcast up asking for donations to help me get episodes transcribed for my "shunned" podcast so that I can reach more people. I not only need monthly donors to help keep up with the cost of new episodes that need to be transcribed, but also have a back catalog of episodes that need to be transcribed and will require a small chunk of change in the amount of $300+.

Well, apparently in my mom's settlement it must have been mandated that the kids get something otherwise my ass probably wouldn't get a penny. Guess who just got a check today (not a large one at all, but a check nonetheless) and can now afford to transcribe the back episodes of the "shunned" podcast. I still need help with the ones that come up, but I can splurge on these back episodes. Hehehehehehehe............ :)

Ask Jehovah and ye' shall receive, bitches! Lol! Thank you Jehovah for your rich blessings. I can now get my apostate podcasts transcribed. Thanks dad! It's the best thing you ever gave me. The timing here is irrefutable proof that if you ask for what you need, the universe provides. ;)

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Has the Governing Body ever been right?

by Jules Saturn in

i asked this question to a relative after mentioning several situations where teachings were changed or readjusted (new light) and they have two reasons.

yes, they are correct because look at how the preaching work has grown through the decades and the advancements in witnessing and the second reason was the doctrine of the trinity and how the society opposes that.

i didn’t really have a response, especially for the trinity doctrine.. does the governing body have the rejection of the trinity belief correct?.

dubstepped

Stuckinarut beat me to it! The one proclamation they got right.

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"Confessions of a teenage Jesus jerk"

by stuckinarut2 in

has anyone else seen the movie "confessions of a teenage jesus jerk"?.

im still processing it, and trying to work out my thoughts..... i would be interested in others thoughts..

dubstepped

@humbled - Being young and growing up JW is the worst. I actually wasn't technically born in, but I was about 8-9 when my mom became a JW and my dad the year after. I'd say that might be even worse than technically being born in. To have to give up so much, family, holidays, friends, etc. at such a young age for such a raw deal may be worse than being truly born in. I don't know, comparing is hard, but it sucked to lose so much so young in exchange for becoming an outcast with even less going for me. Growing up JW sucks no matter how you cut it.

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"Confessions of a teenage Jesus jerk"

by stuckinarut2 in

has anyone else seen the movie "confessions of a teenage jesus jerk"?.

im still processing it, and trying to work out my thoughts..... i would be interested in others thoughts..

dubstepped

I was talking about it with Joho through email and she made a great point about how the cult triggers depression in young people. I've kind of forgotten how rough it can be when you're young. A developing teen with new urges and thoughts is condemned at every meeting for everything he or she is or is becoming. Those next years are fraught with every type of "spiritual" peril and the person facing them all is just a kid. My parents never had to face any of that, and neither did my wife's, as they came in as adults.

I'm glad that people still get to see the cult for the soul destroying thing that it is even if I'm not completely on board with all of the ideas presented. I like that point you made.