Thank you, all who have given energy to my concerns here. It is a very difficult thing to lay down arms against someone who has tried to destroy you. I say that not over- exaggerating. Though bitterness is going to be a part of my existence thru out this ordeal, I look forward to the day when this has come to be resolved. It takes an incredible amount of energy to maintain a hostilic spirit. I appreciate everyone of your responses and I long for the hour when it is I can follow the advice of those of you who encourage me to just let it go. As for now, however, the war must continue to be waged, against myself more than the one for whom my anger is held up against. Some things, I have found will only take time. Wednesday, you helped me put the cap on this, I can't fake no longer being angry and play the let's make nice after this. It would be a lie, I couldn't live a lie while in the Hall, and I'll surely not live one outside of the hall either.
Freedom Fighter, I too have the capacity to nurse a grudge to infinity. Even wishing evil on the one who wished me ill, or worse dead. Not proud of it either, but somethings just require time to heal, for me, this is one of them.
KLS, I know all too well about bitterness. It has brought to the point of wanting a drink to nurse the energy. A moment to relieve the pressure. Though I was speaking of taking this to my grave, I have wished ill on the one that would try to bring me down. It hurts to think I would want to see them there, but that's just the way it is,...at least it is for now.
Tigerman I really liked how you put things in perspective, finding peace and becoming alive by asking God to forgive them.
Robert K. Stack I feel were you are. Too Well
Rebelious Spirit thank you for your energy and candid openess about the pain that was visited in your life. Your courage to share that was incredible. It makes me feel small that you forgave what was done to you to such a degree, where it is that I will not, at this time at least. Thank you for coming in and sharing.
Tres Happy your energy was appreciated as well, you sisters are both emotional giants!!!
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Special Thanks To Brenda C / FHN
Holly / Maxine Mouse / Nancy Drake
FMZ & Defd / Your inputs were greatly appreciated, especially yours defd, I don't know what the true story is with you, but you show an incredible ammount of constructive energy, and it was truly appreciated.
Wm Penwell & Putternut I'll make it a special point not to be so artistically un-aware as to my font colors!!!
Hadenuf , It doesn't appear as if I've had enuff, I wish you well in your anger management skills, you really got a lotta spunk!!!
Mustang / Rescue Me / Country Girl / Why am I Here / Fair Child / Trevor / Jeannie Beanz / Cindy KP
The Classicist Thank You All For Participating.
As to the encouragement that comes thru this board, I am deeply grateful.