When I first quit the meetings, four years ago, my dub wife threw away my 'Live Forever' and 'Revelation' books. They were heavily studied with mad notes.
The Revelation book was my study copy, studied in four times with all the changes notated.
The last time through I was regularly conducting the book study as a MS.
Part of me is upset she tossed the books. The other part is glad I don't have to see how insane I was.