Ever thought of going back...

undercover

...and raising hell?

I read a lot of experiences that so many went through while a JW...the Judicial committee meetings, the verbal abuse from elders and pioneers, the intrusion into private matters, the list goes on and on. I haven't had to endure some of the terrible things that some have endured, though there was always the constant counsel about grooming, music, movies, cars, etc.

Sometimes I think, knowing what I know now, that if I ever had to go back for whatever reason, I could really enjoy being a thorn in the side of many of the elders and over-righeous zealots. I'd wear a beard and dare someone to prove it scripturally wrong. I'd ride my motorcycle to the hall and dare someone to question it. I'd brag about my favorite R-rated movies and "debasing" musical tastes. I'd be excited about my up-coming trip to Vegas and how much I've alloted to spend in the casinos. I would never hide the fact that I went to a strip club with co-workers after a golf game.
I'd basically live life on my terms and flaunt it just to see what reaction I would get from everyone. Anyone who tried to "counsel" me or whatever would get a quick "mind your own business" reaction.

I've spent a few years now fading from the JWs and have been pretty successful. Deep down inside, I'd prefer to never step foot in a Kingdom Hall again, but if for some unexplained reason I had to go back or I wished to finalize my decision by DAing, I think I'd like to go back just enough to be that rebel and create a stir and watch the panic as their indoctrination wouldn't work on me and they would have to take action just to keep me from influencing the other drones. It could be fun, dontcha think?

minimus

nope

mrsjones5

Not really but sometimes my siblings and I talk about things in front of my parents that they arent really comfortable with, nothing racy, but just something to get a little dig in. Like one time we were talking about movies. Mother tells me that her and Dad went to see a movie that was getting raves but had to walk out of it because it was about ghosts and they weren't comfortable with that. She goes on to say that because of the subject matter she thought it wasnt a good movie. I asked her what movie was it. She said "Sixth Sense". I hadnt seen the movie yet but my sister had. Sis says that she loved the movie and would highly recommend it. I said that the movie sounded cool and I wanted to see it. Mother was a little put out and moved to another subject.

daystar

Yeah, I'll admit I've fantasized about it. But I would never do so. I've got much more important things to do, like live.

xjwms

Why

Take

The

Time? ....... To many good, Better, BEST things to do.

HappyDad

I'd ride my motorcycle to the hall and dare someone to question it.

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When I first started missing a lot of meetings......about 1999 or so, I often wondered if the problem was ME. Then the more I read on the internet and when I bought Crisis of Conscience, my mind was made up that something was seriously wrong with what we called "The Organization."

My serious fade started in 2000. But a few times I wondered if I should go back. From 2000 to 2003 I went to about a dozen meetings. The last meeting I went to was memorial of 2003.

From then on I never looked back. And I will never go back. It is the Boys in Brooklyn (GB and all the high-ups) who have apostated themselves. Jer. 23:26-40 I don't consider myself an apostate......but if that is the word ascribed to me.........then so be it.

HappyDad

Golden Girl

My only reason for ever going back would have been my hubby. I think I would have just to be with him. It would have made him so happy.And I couldn't have cared less..they have no hold on me.I could smile and be phoney as well as they do!... But he has passed on..no reason now. Funny the things that just don't seem that important as you get older... When I first stopped being a JW all I wanted to do was prove how wrong they were..just doesn't seem to matter now. I guess because I have no contact with them..it would probably be a different story if I had a lot of JW relatives that shunned me. I just keep remembering them saying the only way I will ever see hubby again is to return to the KH...still sticks in my mind. Cruel people..... Snoozy...

undercover

Wow....a one word reply from minimus...were the number of words per post limited as well as the number of posts per day?

I probably wouldn't waste the time either, but sometimes I see some family and friends who are still in going through some of the same shit posted on here and I just want to shake them and tell them to be their own person and don't worry about what the elders or other JWs think. Then I remember that I was just like them at one time, trying to conform thinking that conforming was what made God happy. And then that's when I think it would be fun, for a little while at least, to be that non-conformist and shake their little bubble-wrapped world up. Then I realize that Sunday mornings are better spent sleeping late and enjoying the quiet morning instead of dressing up and going to a KH.

twinflame

I went to the Memorial the first few years I was out just to ease the shock for my husband. Each year I got a little more pissed off and finally skipped it the last two years. Funny, I remember back when, telling my husband that you could really tell when people had gone over the edge when they didn't even make the Memorial. I am so glad to be over that edge now.

I have thought it might be kind of fun to go to the Memorial sometime and partake just to see what they'd do....

Darth Yhwh

Yeah, every time I pass a KH I think about returning with a can of gas and a match.

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