30 and Out? (page 5)

Its been almost 2 years ago, I was 32 now am 34 years old, growing up in the JW religion I believed everything they taught but at the same time hated every minute of it, then in Feb. of 2011 after reading only 88 pages of Crisis of Conscience I woke up all in one night the light bulb came on, I was flooded with all these thoughts and knew that everything I was taught all my life was a lie, right away off the bat I realized that there was not going to be a paradise and I would not live forever, that was the major one that took me some time to accept that I am not going to be around forever.

Fast forward to 2012, I am 100% out mentally, also since I have accpeted that theres not going to be a paradise and live forever I value everything I do more because there is only once that I will be able to live on this earth, also I am alot more happier, also I have found a church that I go to but also I keep an open mind, at the same time I'll go out and party on some weekends just have fun I love being on the dance floor, thats one of my most biggest therapys and escapes is dancing the night away at a nightclub where I go.

Overall I do believe in God and am a happy Christian but also I beleive that God wants all of us to go out and have fun.

BigE

[Intro]
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Yeah
Too late
I can't keep chasing em
I'm taking my life back
Caught in a chase
25 to life

[Verse 1]
I don't think she understands the sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right I would've stayed
But I've already wasted over half of my life I would've laid
Down and died for you I no longer cry for you
No more pain bitch you
Took me for granted took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
Imma take control of this relationship
Command it, and imma be the boss of you now goddammit
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out this much you owe me
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while I've stayed
Faithful all the way this is how I fucking get repaid
Look at how I dress fucking baggy sweats, go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me I deserve respect
Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase it's time to fucking step
And I wont be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done no need to go in depth
I told you, you'd be sorry if I fucking left
Id laugh while you wept
Hows it feel now, yeah, funny ain't it, you neglected me
Did me a favor although my spirit free you've set
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's,

[Chorus]
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life

[Verse 2]
I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh
Cause that ain't good enough you expect me to fold myself in half
Til I snap
Don't think I'm loyal
All I do is rap
How can I moonlight on the side
I have no life outside of that
Don't I give you enough of my time
You don't think so do you
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still man I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers
I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else and make em famous
And take away their freedom like you did to me
Treat em like you don't need them and they ain't worthy of you
Feed em the same shit that you made me eat
I'm moving on forget you oh,
Now I'm special? I didn't feel special when I was with you
All I ever felt was this
Helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch
Chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this so many times
It's ridiculous
And still I stick with this
I'm sick of this but in my sickness and addiction
You're addictive as they get
Evil as they come vindictive as they make em
My friends keep asking me why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted
To the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn in so I guess imma mess
Cursed and blessed
But this time imma
Ain't changing my mind
I'm climbing out this abyss
You screaming as I walk out that I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people who meant the most to you
You left me off your list

Fuck you hip-hop
I'm leaving you, my life sentence is served bitch
And it's just

[Chorus]
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase
25 to life
Too late
Caught in a chase
25 to life

Soldier77

30 is about right. Old enough to start using your experiences in life to help you plan and act on what course you're taking. Young enough to still have that energy and strength to do whatever you want. I was almost 31 when I was mentally done with the cult. It took me a couple of years to get through the anger/hate etc.

Vidiot

Dogpatch - "I remained a virgin til' 39."

Um... wow.

Actually, now that I think about it, you do look a little like Steve Carrell...

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Vidiot

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