Hey, got your cell, and just put it in my phone..........will call soon!
Life rushes in........
by purplesofa 31 Replies latest watchtower scandals
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tijkmo
Why Am I
Why am I weak Why am I strong
At the same time It just seems wrong
It's not what I've done (That scares me the most)
It's more what I am That both excites and terrifies
I've ceased to believe in anything
In sense, in justice, and in life
Just want the end to come now
I've ceased to believe in anything
I've just lay down and given in
Just want the end to come now quickly
I can forgive anyone else
So why can't I forgive myself
It's easier to convince someone else
Of the need to be positive
People seem to want to hope
It's easier to convince someone else
Than it is to convince myself
My mind is set my hope is gone
People try to reason with me
Can't they see that I'm not stupid
It's not that I don't see what you're trying
It's just that no amount of reason
Can bring back the feelings that have gone;
They'll either come back or they won't
And at this moment...they won't
Well I wish I was a drinker
So that I could drown my sorrows
So that I could fall asleep
Maybe there'd be no tomorrows
Well I wish I was a user
So that I could overdose on something nice
And anaesthetize the pain away
Well I wish I was still suicidal
So then I could wish that I was dead
But I don't even have the will to die
Doesn't it seem just a little funny
That even though I feel nothing
My heart breaks every time you go away -
purplesofa
hey tjkimo............did you write that?
purps
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tijkmo
yup
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Satanus
Tijkmo
Well put. My shrink called it an existential crisis. That is, he thought that i have it. Maybe it will come down to taking life one day at a time.
S
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tijkmo
hey thanx you guys
tis better with music
someday i hope to let you hear
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purplesofa
Tijkmo..........do you have a big collection of writings? that you would share?
purps
you have a way with words.....
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tijkmo
well yes i do ..blush blush
dont know if everyone wants to hear though ..or read
i could pm you though
but gotta sleep tonight so will do over w/e if you wish
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Es
Hey purple when you first leave the borg everything is so overwhelming.....it took me about year to finally have no guilt for the things i get up to its the best feeling FREEDOM es