Ha! Reputation that oozes hypocrisy. Isn't it fun to WITNESS? As I did this weekend at a wedding where 'mother' was an her elder husband. You should have seen them...acting as worldly as most of the people there. Over drinking, taking pictures of family member's that will soon be dead at the hands of jehovah...armageddons victims, acting as if they truly held some sort of real emotion with every click of the camera; basically hypocrisizing all over the place. It disgusted me so.
She came over to our table (she and he can't sit and eat a meal with birdfood when what they are serving is chicken!) with her trusty camera. I felt like getting up yet was frozen thinking..."she isn't, she wouldn't...i mean, why?". She did. That type of blatent hypocrisy is what really burns my core. Tears, not tears, me up.
Then when we were leaving and I was saying my goodbyes and expressing my gratitude for even being included in this event (oh yea, there was lots of debate between family members as if to even put my mom and me in same vicinity for any length of time). I guess she felt I was going to pass up hugging her or even saying goodbye. (Geez, I'm not that rude or uncivil)
She held her arms out and hugged me before I could even catch my breath. I just stood there. I did not put my arms around her. She squeezed me so tight it almost upchucked everything I've been stuffing for years. She got lucky, as I was able to swallow that and get it back to it's place. She finally let go and looked at me as if. All I could say was "have a safe drive home". By the look on her face, she was surely expecting more...as if. God, she has a lot of nerve. She' s so lucky that hindsight is just that, hindsight. I could have said so many things in her ear as she was hugging me. Like: you can let go now, the show is over. Or: you're lucky you got drunk tonight instead of me and i ended up tearing your mask off your face. Or: you don't fool me. you and i know how you and raloh and your congregants really feel about everyone around you here tonight. Or: ....well, you get the idea.
Suffice it to say, I bite my tongue the entire night. The hypocrisy and pretending that jws are able to display to the public is what keeps them from harm actually. If the public, the people at that wedding REALLY KNEW how jws and my mom view the world and it's people around them, I can assure you there would be hell to pay. (I envisioned that night after getting into bed, lying and thinking how disgusted i was having to witness such hypocrisy, how i would of desired to get up and say something like: ladies and gentlemen...i'm glad to know that you think my mom really cares about any of you, but let me paint you a picture if i may...... then i drifted off to sleep).
Wow, I wrote a bit more here than I really intended to or even wanted to take a risk in doing so.
And minimus, finally, a really good question! Ha!
sKally