It's like trying to explain the color red to a blind person...you can only use what you can relate to.
Buddha's enlightenment was very similar to what I feel. Or at least what I think he may have felt thru his words. Very hard to describe and I guess in someways may even demean the experience by trying to box it in to a definable set of standards.
Well, I certainly have respect for you and for that which you find to give you this freedom.
But, for myself, I cringe. Not because what you describe is intrinsically disgusting. Heck no! Sounds great. But, I have come to feel that my mind is the first line of defense for sanity. I've had friends who were into drugs describing a similar release and just as non-verbal. For them, they surrendered their mind's hold to simply experience experience itself. Okay. But, that ride costs a pretty penny.
We have all seen people who were in a vegetative state whose minds (through accident) had surrendered to pure sensation. There was nobody left "at the wheel". That is how these "spiritual experiences" sound to my ears. And heck, I can be wrong. I can certainly be wrong.
But, the red flag for me is that it is all so subjective, vague, inarticulate and touch-feely. I was in Federal Prison for two years with (among other persons) people who were busted for drugs. Their attempts to justify drugs was just as inept, subjective, vague and inarticulate. They just LIKED THE FEELING and craved the irresponsibility of being in a mind cocoon.
I'm not labeling SPIRITUAL people as drug-takers or mindless daffodils. I'm just saying these explanations make them ___sound___that way.
I could be the one who is mindless; but, it isn't through lack of effort trying to grasp the ineffable.
I've come to see that most (if not all) MYSTICAL experiences are just like wishful-thinking; they are idealized make-believe unconnected to demonstrable fact. Mystics always require you to simply accept (without proof) that what they are saying is terrific, wonderful, transcendant and available to you too if you just relax your mind and surrender to the moment.
Well, I'm reserving the right not to surrender without a fight :)