It has been a wierd day. I only slept about four hours last night - just wide awake. This morning, the czarina and I went to dog training school. I was just sitting there, reading the paper, waiting for class to start, when suddenly the barking dogs drove me nearly insane. I jumped up and walked away.
Now comes the weird part. I felt like I was floating. It is FREEZING in Pittsburgh right now, but I wasn't cold at all. Not even a little bit. I walked from the North Side of Pittsburgh to the South Side, then to Oakland, then home. Wow. It's about eight miles, the route I took. My body is aching and sore, I am exhausted, but I still cannot sleep. I feel unreal. Thirsty beyond belief.
Am I sick? What is going on? I was so confused for the whole walk; I can remember it, but it seems almost as if it didn't happen. I saw so many things, walked where people don't walk, along highways and over bridges. We have three rivers in Pittsburgh, I crossed two of them once and one of them twice in my meanderings.
the czarina hasn't spoken to me since I got back, nearly six hours after we parted. I guess I should have said goodbye, or something. Or hello when I got back. I'm not sure what to say, if anything. She went to work tonight.
Is this because I am going to be a father for the first time? Is this because I am looking for a real job for the first time in my life? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH ME? Am I crazy (again)?
I saw dubs walking up and down the street, holding their Awakes and counting their time. My energy picked up noticeably after I saw them, like my agitation was fed by their complacent auras. And I'm particularly paranoid about things - and the cats and the dog are also edgy. I keep feeling like something is going on and I'm just missing it; but I can almost see it in the corner of my eyes.