Thanks so much for all your comments. they are helping to make sense of all this madness. feel like ive been hypnotised for the last year and im just waking up.
Elsewhere - interesting and thought provoking article.
seeing the woman i study with tomorrow. i realise she is just doing what she has been taught and sincerely believes it - she had me at that point too a a couple of weeks ago. easy to get that way once you start down that road.
thank god for modern technology. i can say with certainly i would have become a jw if it hadnt been for this forum. that isnt said to make anyone feel guilty - i take full responsibility for myself and what i do and dont do. just the thought of being disfellowshipped for daring to ask a question, is enough to stop me getting dipped.
will keep you posted