Last night, my cell phone rang and it was a number I didn?t recognize. I answered, and the voice said, ?Is this Doug?? I said ?yes,? and he said, ?This is DD ? (an elder I used to ?serve? with).
It has been six years since I left, 5 1/2 since I was df?d. I have not heard from them since that time.
I immediately asked, ?How did you get this number?? He said, ?Your mother gave it to me? (thanks mom). He asked if I wanted to get together and talk. I said, ?Oh, are you thinking about leaving the organization?? He said no. I asked what he wanted to talk about, and he said something about seeing if I wanted to come back.
It is funny? the explosion of different emotions that converged on my brain at that moment. Anger, bitterness, resentment? I found it hard to speak without my voice shaking.
I handled the call calmly, with respect and dignity for him; I did not yell, however I firmly made my position crystal clear.
I said, ?I appreciate the intent of your call, but let me explain my position, DD. I am happier than I?ve ever been. It is soooo much better NOT being a Witness than it ever was BEING a Witness. I am no longer religious. I do not believe in the bible at all, or god necessarily. I am agnostic. I am as much of an apostate as you?ll ever find, and I am never coming back. Furthermore?just to make my position perfectly clear?IF it is all true and Armageddon does come, I will die flipping Jehovah off while I tell him, ?Fuck you!??
I stated again that I appreciated the intent of his call, that I had nothing against him personally, and the reason for my being so direct was to emphasize that I am NEVER coming back, and to NOT CALL ME AGAIN unless you are thinking about leaving the organization.
I told him that the WTS was corrupt, that they lie, and that they are blood guilty for hurting so many people. I brought up the UN issue, and told him that it was provable that they were part of the ?Beast? for 10 years? all he had to do was call the UN and ask.
He remained silent through all this, and then said something about us being friends at one time. I said, ?Yes we were. But your beliefs preclude a friendship with me. You will only accept me as long as I believe like you do. I, however, will accept you no matter what you believe.
After a few of his awkward comments, I told him, ?Please relay what I?ve said to the body. Don?t call me again. If I ever want to come back, I?ll call you.?
He said ?Okay,? and asked if I spoke for Tracy (Think41Self) as well. I said, ?Yes, and you are welcome to ask her personally IF you can find our [unpublished] home number, because I?m not giving it to you. However, if you do talk to her, I?m not sure she?ll go as easy on you as I did.?
He said, ?Okay,? and the call ended.
So why did he call? Well, it is that time of the year to check in with df?d people, and recently, my brother gave a talk in his congregation while visiting my mom. Apparently, my brother asked him to call me (Farkel and AlanF knows my brother). That pissed me off too. Why can?t my brother call me? Maybe he is afraid? maybe he?s too emotionally involved to deal with it.
Any rate, I trust they won?t be calling again.
Edited to correct formatting