I didn't respond to your first thread where you introduced yourself, so sorry about the delay. Happy to have you here!
I am sorry for what you are going thru. It is very confusing to be a part of what is suppose to be the "world wide brotherhood" when comments like the speaker are made for all to hear.
Peggy, I was raised as a JW and was very faithful. I understand what it is like to be married for quite some time and go thru a divorce, it is so painful.
I remarried another JW...and relocated for his work. Went to MANY KHalls and the only thing they were interested in were our "publisher cards". That told me they were NOT living up to one of their identifying marks of the true religion: LOVE. They did not want to get to know us...they wanted our "publisher cards"..(that's is it, only our publisher cards)..The Brotherly Love that I was told would be worldwide, definitely was not in any of those KHalls. The District Convention was equally disappointing......only a disfellowshipped sister with 4 little kids would say "hi" to us and then said she was disfellowshipped and would be happy to visit, but she couldn't. Amazing how that df'd sister showed more love than one of the elders in our KH...he looked at me, and said nothing and walked away!!!
Yes, GDT, I believe the KH's in the US are getting callous and not following the Bible...
There comes a time in our life when our dedication to Jehovah remains between us and we must work out a way to serve him that does not conflict with the Bible............and us only, not an organization. A person's spirituality has nothing to do with meeting attendance or field service or studying the WTBS books. Our spirituality is between us and Jehovah and his son, Jesus, that gave his life for us.
We are all well aware of ones with "titles" that have a title but don't act spiritual. Funny thing is, that "titles" are frowned against in the Bible but the WTBS is full of titles for people.
Peggy, I think your confusion about studying about this organization, the WTBS, that is suppose to be the true religion is making you feel guilty. However, haven't we had studies with people and told them to research their own religion? After all, the WTBS only wants you to read their material, which is always one sided.
Hang in there, do your research so that "you can make sure of the important things".