***The "above normal level"? You people truly are crazy. ***
Takes one to know one. Crazy is the glue that keeps us all together. It's actually a bit comforting to accept that fact. It gives you a good starting point for progression. Looking into the mirror and telling the person you see that they are nuts is quite an euphony. Realizing all the people standing behind you and looking into the same mirror saying the same thing lets you know you are not alone. The problem with most people who think they are normal is their inability to realize they are not. Once you understand that, you have set yourself above the bar and then you can begin to grow.
You at least have identified some of your problems and have posted them here. As you keep reading this board you will find you are not all that unique and that your problems are not so much a problem as they are a circumstance. Problems can be solved and circumstances can be changed. It's all up to you and how honest you can be with yourself. I recommend watching more Southpark. It's worked for me.
You're separated and have a pending divorce, you just joined over half the normal married population.
Your in your 40's, that is not a problem but a fact of life. You do not have trust in any organization, you get major points for that one. You are dealing with depression, so is a good majority of the population, depression is a big business these days. It overshadows people dealing with extreme happiness 10 to 1. Your therapist is a pig, report him to the board of ethics and get his card pulled.
Southpark, the comedy channel, Wednesday nights.
Dave