I'm sorry for what you are going through ...
... wish you well ... take care
I got backmy sick son,,, just to lose the rest ofmy family
just recently i was hospitalized ,,,for another suicide attempt... i think iwill make the next one stick
Wildfire, if you take yourself out, then the WTS wins. Doing this will only prove to your JW family that they DO have the truth. I know that when you're the only one fighting a battle, you get tired. Please, just try and take a rest and get some first aid for your battle wounds. As long as they're not firing guns at you, you've still got much to live for. Don't give up on yourself and your children. I'm sure they love you.
wildfire, hello there. you have had so many encouraging thoughts from people who have been hurt, would you mind if i just suggested something? somewhere near you would surely be a park or garden, why not just go there and sit quietly down and meditate, no radios, no people, just yourself. rain, hail, or sunshine. you may like to contemplate on what you see around you- sky, clouds, birds, flowers, grass, trees, everything living in its own way, even the little birds flying around are such a marvel how so tiny a brain works, the small creatures in the river or pond, don't think of humans....we're the worst!!. wildfire, what I am trying to ask you to do, is what has helped me to handle life's problems too, we all have much we'd like to forget sometimes caused by us, but mostly others or outside issues. my son is now 26, seems to be settling down better, was 6 when he saw his mum horribly killed by a drunk driver, (after the memorial in front of half the congregation) he played around with drugs and alcohol at school, got into strife, crossed borders of correct behaviour, spent a year in prison, got a huge amount of family criticism from brothers/ sister and step brothers and sister, i cannot have him in my home or property to live because of his errors.......and on and on. i wasn't going to tell you my position, but you sound so down, please though, say a word of prayer to jehovah god for me too as well as for yourself, because deep down i still believe that he is, and that he does care for us (hard to see sometimes eh?)
and may i close in asking you to accept the expressions of care from so many on this board, i sort of think we all would like to have the power to fix things, as only Christ has, and we really shouldn't be telling god what to do, should we?
my sincerest thoughts,
Gdt that was so nice of you to share your heartaches with WildFire and giver her the help to see what beauty the world has to offer.
Please except my condolences to you for the lose of your son's mom and the troubles 's your son has had.
kls, special thanks to you, is there anyone living nearby wildfire who could be with her? just a thought. if we weren't in Oz, my wife and i would drop in a date cake or something and try to be helpful if we could.
and again, thank you, i've got 66 years on this earth coming up, some great, some good, some lousy times! take care,
wildfire, geoff again. i just read your biography (to try and see where you live actually), and i notice you write intense poetry. guess what? so does my son i was telling you about, he'd love to be a journalist or writer and has quite a library of poems, but my son , whilst not autistic or obviously backward, may have 'aspergers syndrome' as he has trouble coordinating as in trying to play tennis, but if you could help him in any way you know how i would feel as a silly old father... been to all the specialists etc, somehow think plain down to earth humans are better?????
WildFire...How are you doing? We'd like to talk somemore.
Has anyone talked to her lately or know how to contact her?
Hang in there, sweetie!
I am just now reading your thread...........and my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry for all the pain you have had to endure.
Please go to your family doctor and tell him how depressed you are.....you are worth fighting for!
Sending you many hugs,
MY DEAR ,,, DEAR LOVING FRIENDS......I AM so OVER WHELMED BY ALL OF YOUR GOOD AND POSITIVE FEED BACK.....I AM CRYING NOW ,,, BUT THEY ARE GOOD TEARS.... and yes I do write ,, that has been my salvation for years...journaling....poetry...i even wrote out a three page thesis about my harrowing experience with finding my son.when he was lost...for 5 days.....and I sent itto the NAMI HEADQUARTERS HERE IN AUSTIN..... a nice lady named susan said she wanted to send itto the newsletters so many more people could see it... and be amazed at my writing ability....but more importantly the message....austin ,,texas is not sympathetic to the needs of people with mental illnesses.....thats why there are panhandlers at all most every stop lite......and most have no other recourse but to do this... as bush cut funding to help the most vulnerable of our society....i call them the throw--away.. society....
yes i do have some dear friends here gdt...country girl and xena and the group from dallas...valis...and others .....my son was excepted in a trial study for people with his illness and he just left with a wonderful,, caring lady ,he will stay there inpatient for 2 weeks and then outpatient for 10 weeks and is also financiallly compensated also....dear RABBIT....I MEMBER YOU FROM DALLAS ...YOU ARE A DEAR FRIEND .. THANKS FOR CARING SO MUCH....
a poem i wrote a while back is called TIME TO HEAL
THE LESS BROKEN NEED TO TAKE CARE OF THE MORE BROKEN
BUT WHERE DO WE FIT IN? A LOOK, A SIGH,A CHANCE TO BEGIN
TO SEE THE PAIN INSIDE
TO CARE WITHOUT COMMITTMENT, TO COMMITT WITHOUT A CARE
DARE WE SAY WE WILL BE THERE, TO CALM OUR BROTHERS FEARS
DONT LOOK AT ME FOR YOU WILL SEE, THE MASK I WEAR IS REAL..
BUT JUST REMEMBER,,FOR ALL ITS WORTH
THE BROKEN NEED TIME TO HEAL........
I have several poems on poetry .com so if youcare to check it out...feel free to browse...one they really like is called GUILTSTRUCK.....
DEAR FRIENDS I AM GETTING COUNSELING ,, I HAVE an appo
WildFire i am so glad you are going in for help. You have been through so much i know but you are stronger then you think. If you ever ,ever need us we are here but please take of yourself and screw those that hurt you . That is what i have done let them live in their own vomit and the circle they have made for themselves. WildFire i have known you since i came to JWD and i know you are a sweet loving person and don't ever forget it.