Always felt like an outsider, whether in or out, before or after. Think I always will. But to be honest, I think I also prefer it that way. For me the JWs was an excuse to ditch stuff like Christmas and feel part of club-exclusive and I still do not celebrate Christmas - no point forcing the issue when it doesn't 'sit right'.
None of the above is to say that I despise life or those who are close to me, but I simply do not fit in. I've tried for years.
Plus, I do not like the bigger part of the society I live within. Again I've tried adjusting me vision, yet to no avail.
So what do you do?
Live with it I guess