Thanks to all for the kind words.
When I re-read my own life story I'm frankly apalled by how much time I wasted. But, there is nothing I can do about that now. What I can do is use the time I have now to create a better life for myself and my family without getting stuck in the flypaper of recriminations about the past.
That seems to be where all the Ex-JW's start and end.
T.