I didn't comment on your previous installments because I was eagerly waiting for the last one -- which was, believe it or not, exactly what I hoped and expected.
Over 10 years ago I met with an xJW lady who attended a conference I made near Paris about JWs (I was frequently asked for this kind of talk back then, i.e. a few years after I was df'd). She was in and out of a psychiatric hospital. Her talk was a fantastic patchwork of the NWT (only I could notice that). It implied visions and dreams, including revelations that she was Jehovah's Wife, with a notable experience featuring a tree and an obvious phallic symbol. What could be termed in an "objective" clinical way a mystical and sexual delirium.
I remember wondering, while listening to her, why my own "mystical" experience which led me out of the WT didn't lead me to a psychic condition like hers. I had no answer, and still haven't.
Those who never were attracted to a similar "mystical" experience or shyed away from it cannot understand. Neither can those who get stuck in such an experience. You made your way through and out of it. You are a great lady indeed.
Take care and enjoy your fully human freedom,
Ohhhhh, Narkissos....THANK you, cher! To me, this means my point wasn't entirely lost in the telling of it....I guess only someone else who's seen and heard the things I've seen and heard or something parallel to it (according to what they know) would understand what it means. More tomorrow on this....I've gotta scoot off to work now.