If you are thinking of going back I want you to think about what your life is really going to be like.
I have a friend who recently left the JW?s for the 3 rd time because he is gay and could not live a straight life. He wanted to be like everyone else and settle down with someone ? but as a JW that someone would have to be female. He has tried so many times to fight against what he is and has tried to be straight but just could not live the lie! Also what about the poor person he could have married ? to find out your husband was really gay would be devastating. I feel just as strongly if it were finding out your wife was gay. It is all about living a lie.
I remember asking the elders about this subject and they said that Jehovah would help the person not be gay anymore if the prayed hard enough. How cruel is that?
I agree that there are many nice people within the JW?s but they will not risk going against the elders etc for fear of them being shunned. As I mentioned on another thread, I was very much discouraged from associating with some of the people in my congregation who were not deemed spiritual enough. The class system is still very much in operation within the network.
I felt when I was an active JW that I had a great life ? friends up and down the country that I could visit, a good network of support or so I thought. I was a regular pioneer when I began to wonder what I was doing with my life. Not one of these so-called friends called when I was disfellowshiped to ask if they could help me back! There is something very wrong when there are as many people leaving, as there are becoming JW?s.