I just found this sight today and have not had time to read very many posts, but I can relate to some of the ones I have read thus far.
I have been a JW for only 2yrs. but have had doubts for about 6mo. now. I began reading material outside the WTS such as "Crisis of Conscience".
I was shocked at the things I've found and went through a bout of depression. I have not been to a meeting or in service for a couple of months and cannot bring myself to go. I am in the process of disassociating myself from the org.
My husband has been a JW all his life and although he has no doubts of his own, he has ceased all activity in the past month. He is having a hard time adjusting to the fact that I simply no longer believe the society is Jehovah's inspired organization.
He has tried to reason with me and says the info. on the net is put there by satan. He says Ray Frantz's book is apostate literature and full of lies. He refuses to believe that the UN involvement is even true. The proof I have shown him he says could be fabricated. It's all a big conspiracy by Satan to turn us all from the WTS.
It is so frustrating to see such paranoia and have him justify everything the organization does. He says the stories I read on the internet are a fabrication designed by apostates and satan.
I have always disagreed with the df'ing proceedures but other doubts have slowly crept into my head as I have read material about the miscalculated dates stemming from the actual date of the fall of Jerusalem, the silent lambs, the secrecy in which the government body operates, the questionable process the NWT was translated in, etc., etc., etc.,
I have come to the conclusion that I can no longer associate myself with a group that I don't believe actually has the entire truth. My husband argues that they are the closest to the only true religion. To me CLOSE just doesn't cut it.
Thank you for letting me introduce myself and share my story. I look forward to reading your posts and any advice you have. I am so thankful there is a forum that we can share our diverse experiences and lend emotional support.