The grandson i never got to know (page 2)

Thunder Rider

Kls,

I feel your pain. Sheila and I lost a grandson last year. I still wonder sometimes what it would have been like if he had lived. I wrote him a poem. I'd like to share it with you.

BUB

I love the Doe, I hate the Buck.
I would have loved you too.
But you came to us not finished yet,
Your days in womb too few.
Your Sissy made our day start bright,
Her smile brings us such joy,
You needn?t have rushed to join the fun,
We?d have waited on you boy.
Perhaps you saw us with her
hand in hand, and one too few.
Sure I?ve only two hands now
But I?d have grown one just for you.
It pains me now to know that I
Will never know your heart.
I?m left only with the memory of
Your much too early start.
I?d love to tell you that your life
Would have been wonderful and grand.
But you can?t control your makers
Or the cards dealt in your hand.
Know this though little one,
Doubt it not one bit.
My heart has cleared a place for you
A warm and snuggly fit.
So take that place and settle in
See the world through my eyes.
Help me watch over little Mac
As we walk under sunny skies.
Some folks go a lifetime
And never leave their mark.
You were only here a moment
But a flicker in the dark.
I?ll take that flicker now
And gather it to my soul
I?ll always wonder what could have been,
Had you lived to grow and to be whole.
I would have called you BUB.

Copyright 2003

bebu

((((kls))))

For a person to have to do such a thing ever... That is so very sad. You were so kind to do what was so difficult.

Thunder Rider, I really appreciated that poem very much. Thanks for sharing that.

bebu

simplesally

Thunder ------------ oh my gosh..........you made me cry again for the baby I lost but never got to meet.

kat2u

Thunder that poem was soo heartfelt and wonderful.

I wrote a poem for my grandson when he died also,

Tyler

I mourn for who you were to be,tears shed of love for you.... and for me.

Each milestone missed will be marked in my heart,

you came here for a reason, you did your part

The softness of your tender skin,The games of tag youll never win.

The sweet smell and warmth of a baby so small,

we will long to have comforted you after a fall

The way your dad held you as you said hello to this world

his voice was your comfort,and your brow quickly unfurled

the tight grip of your fingers, so tiny,,, so sweet

arching twords moms touch with those delicate feet

The feel of your cheek as i kissed you goodby,

and now the deep loss and the wondering..... Why!!!?

But though there is pain right now fresh and deep

Your memory forever in our hearst we shall keep

Love grandma

Thunder Rider

Kat2u,

OK now I'm crying again.

Does it ever get better?

Thunder

Sirona

You were only here a moment
But a flicker in the dark.
I?ll take that flicker now
And gather it to my soul
I?ll always wonder what could have been,
Had you lived to grow and to be whole.

Thunder, that is lovely. I had a miscarriage a few years ago....and now I'm scared to even attempt getting pregnant again...

Sirona

Special K

(((((KLS )))))

Our losses in life can sometime be extreme and our thoughts often wonder what could have been.

Loss of a child, through my own experience, only ever becomes bearable.

sincerely

Special K

DazedAndConfused

I "almost" know the pain you are feeling. I can't imagine carrying your grandchild in your car, but I do know the pain of the loss of a child. 27 years ago, April, I lost a son. I remember becoming newly acquainted with a friend and her son was the same age my son would have been. I loved her son so much. Then it hit me on my son's birthday that they were the same age. I couldn't work, I couldn't function. He would have been 16 at the time.

Funny how you don't ever forget how old a child "would have been".

Thunder, to answer your question, for me at least, it does get better but the pain is still always there.

reganashe

I'm very sorry to hear about your lost. I wish I had something to say that would make it all go away.

Your in my thoughts.

ReganAshe

Dansk

((((((((((kls)))))))))))))

I can think of nothing worse than the death of a child. We are all sorry for your sad loss. Words just aren't enough at times like this and, let's be honest, one never truly gets over it.

Thinking of you with all the love in the world,

Ian

The grandson i never got to know

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