Dear Skepsis.... Have you ever seen the movie "The Truman Show"? An insurance salesman/ adjuster discovers his life is just a TV show...
Can you imagine? All the people around you are actors and actresses, playing a nonsensical game. Would you worry about "fading" out of the TV show? What value did your life have?
What I like is what this guy did to escape "The Show"..... He didn't announce "I AM LEAVING" He faked everyone out, and escaped.
When I was leaving, I said, "Hey, this all is worth nothing, it is a game, a made up game"..... So, to keep everyone off my back, and give me time.... I just started entering hours on my "Time Report"!
If you want to "Keep pioneering", just write the hours in, and do something better with your time, and none will be the wiser!
You will love your freedom, enjoy!
(PS, your english is very good, and Scratchme1010 & Magnum had some very good suggestions! Do not get married..... can you say "complicated"?)