As it's a new year, and most of us made resolutions, I'd like to know what about yourself you would truly change if you could? If you had one wish and it meant you could magically alter something of yourself, what would it be?
What quality about yourself do you wish would go away? Do you really and truly like the person that you are? Are there some things about you (physically or otherwise) that you would give anything to change?
Some things about myself are ok in my opinion. I don't lie, even though that sometimes makes me have very few friends. I'm very sensitive, sometimes to my own detriment. But, I have lots of compassion for people. It doesn't matter if I know them or not. I will give you the shirt off my back to help you. If I know someone wants or needs something, I will go out of my way to see that they get it.
But, I hate that my self-esteem is not what it should be. I know that I'm as good as everyone else. In my mind at least, but it just doesn't feel that way. Years of being abused, picked on, called names (even by my mother) have taken their toll. I've read all the books about raising your self-image, etc. But, the feelings will not go away, and I HATE it!! I can fake them successfully, but I want the feeling to be real.
It actually makes me ill to think that I may go through the rest of my life feeling this way. And I don't know what else to try to do to change it. If only there were magic beans!