Preaching From The Platform While Secretly A Satanist

by Teufel 39 Replies latest jw experiences

  • Teufel

    Hello one and all.

    I've been a lurker on here for a few weeks now and i am finally starting to post on some threads. A lot of the subjects that i wanted to talk about have already been covered so i wont bother restarting a topic that's been done to death.

    Im a 3rd generation, born-in, JW. Currently faded. I basically moved to another part of the country and didn't tell anybody my new address. I have no family left so it was easy for me. When i was an active JW i was a full-on, bible thumping believer. Although i was very compassionate to others. I never did agree with shunning and i never practiced that.

    As you may have guessed from the title of this thread, im a Satanist. LaVeyan Satanist to be precise. It's not something i worked on nor did i change aspects of my life or personality in order to conform to Satanic precepts. I read the Satanic Bible and other works by Anton LaVey, along with a study of the occult and history of religion and it's superstitious delusions. I noticed that i agreed with all of it. So decided to stop living my life for an organization and live it all for myself. Although the occult interests me immensely, i regard it as just play and dont for a second believe in literal magic or the devil or and gods or demons etc.

    I realized i was a Satanist while a JW. I always felt closer to the character Satan in the bible than any other character. Here is Satan, a character who questions authority, who fights against a tyrannical god who kills at will. That, i think, is a person worthy of imitation. I did not think it healthy or wise to restrict my desires whether they be carnal or anything else. So many JWs are sexually repressed and fighting addictions to pornography, masturbation, fetishes, homosexual desires etc. I found that by indulging in whatever i wanted removed these. I learned that i either didn't like it, or i liked it very much so continued doing it. So i basically lived the life of a satanist while fading from the organization. I would give talks on the platform telling the audience what they'd want to hear, but include subtle hand gestures or words and i even had various tattoos under my cheap suit.

    I find it hilarious that this religion claims to be protected by their impotent god Jehovah, yet there was, for a few years, a satanist on their platform.

    So all in all im a lot happier. I know who i am, i like myself and i wish no harm on others who wish me no harm. Im enjoying the posts on here.

  • Freedom rocks
    Freedom rocks

    Welcome refuel. If God Reilly protected the congregation then there wouldn't be paedophiles or wife beaters either, its a paedophiles and abusers paradise. The whole religion is a cult and run by 8 power hungry men and is damaging people's lives

  • stillin

    So, you can be a Satanist even though there is no Satan? Is it the same as "self-centered?"

  • Freedom rocks
    Freedom rocks

    Yeah i don't quite get how you can be a Satanist if you don't believe Satan exists.

  • Teufel

    You're confusing Theistic Satanism with LaVeyan Satanism.

    Theistic Satanist believe that the character Satan actually exists.

    LaVeyan Satanists regard Satan in the bible as a fictional character worthy of imitation. To me, he represents human nature.

    I was going to write a long explination but Wikipedia and the Church Of Satan website will explain it better:

    The religion is materialist, rejecting the existence of supernatural beings, body-soul dualism, and life after death. Practitioners do not believe that Satan literally exists and do not worship him. Instead, Satan is viewed as a positive archetype representing pride, carnality, and enlightenment. He is also embraced as a symbol of defiance against Abrahamic religions which LaVeyans criticize for suppressing humanity's natural instincts and encouraging irrationality. The religion propagates a naturalistic worldview, seeing mankind as animals existing in an amoral universe. It promotes a philosophy based on individualism and egoism, coupled with Social Darwinism and anti-egalitarianism.

    So, you can be a Satanist even though there is no Satan? Is it the same as "self-centered?"

    Yes. And yes, however, that doesn't mean we dont love others. We do. We just dont waste it on those who dont appreciate it.

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  • LoveUniHateExams

    Preaching From The Platform While Secretly A Satanist -

    Teufel is German for 'devil' so you're appropriately named.

    What was it like being thrown out of heaven in 1914?

    Good job on giving Job boils and skin diseases - creative touch.

    BTW, I liked you in The Exorcist.

  • Teufel

    What was it like being thrown out of heaven in 1914?

    That c#nt throws like a girl.

  • _Morpheus
    I found that by indulging in whatever i wanted removed these. I learned that i either didn't like it, or i liked it very much so continued doing it.

    Thats contradictory. Did you remove them or did you continue doing them more?

  • truth_b_known

    Teufel -

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. I appreciate the information and the explanation of the types of Satanists there are.

    I share a similar story. I too am a 3rd generation born-in. I was an uber Witness until I reached 30. Then I faded.

    I was always drawn to the Norse gods and religion. I would consider my self a modern Odinist. I do not believe these gods exist, but I appreciate and follow many of the teachings of those who did.

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