I was very lucky to have be dating somebody who didn’t run and snitch on me when I started having questions and showing him research I did, instead he listened to me, and after a few arguements, he did wake up as well. It really didn’t take much to wake him up, and he was more just tired of the crazy witnesses in general. and now we are planning on getting married and fading together so that our families can at least enjoy our wedding, that special time in life, before we possibly loose them one day. But what irritates me, is that he has never done any research for himself, he is not really interested in doing any. And so because of that, when I have a hard time engaging him in conversation about it, he listens and agrees, but he does not have his own thoughts and opinions about it, he has no emotions towards it at all. He does have his own opinions and thoughts when it comes to his new founded atheism though, which I guess it good. But also, his waking up doesn’t affect his life much. His family is not as “spiritually strong”” and so they don’t care if he misses meetings and doesn’t go in service. Where as I have to go to all meetings, every Saturday service, and study with my family 3 times a week plus my dad makes me do a bible study with him in the keep yourselves in gods love book. I’m so miserable and exhausted from keeping my true feelings inside, someone’s I wish I could just die so I don’t have to continue this life anymore. And I try to be thankful that I have someone who understands the organization and what my childhood and everything was like, but sometimes I feel like he really just doesn’t understand, and I’m so dissatisfied with his lack of anger or disgust towards the org.
Am I being unreasonable? Do you think I should just be thankful with what I have and stop being critical of him? I wish I could be more like him and just let it go and not look back. But it’s negativly impacted me so much more than him, and it affects my life so much more than it does for him.
Thanks for listening.