I have never seen a more accurate description of the 'witness way'. at its extreme of extremes.
I had a shift work job for all the kids growing up years so my family missed many meetings which was a good thing for them and for me. We had life balance. A few times when my wife accepted offers of a lift to hall for the ms/sm meetings now called 'midweek' (as the jw pretend they don't run schools; to do with working with child clearances) they elder who gave them a lift never got them home till after 10.00 pm with the kids going to school next day. So she and I said 'no more.' In more recent years I despaired at the lost time losing hour apon hour to hearing the same thing over and over and speakers at conventions who could be caring, concise and to the point would use 50 words and often with poor grammar when a few would do.
Think of the greatest speeches of history, the Gettysburg address, (Lincoln )the battle of Britain speech,(Churchill) his inaugural speech by Mandela and the sermon on the mount of Jesus (Yeshuah) all of these went no more than 15 to 20 minutes. and to when elders giving their first talk have to do so word for word from a prepared script in the balky witness 'English' with strangled paragraphs and stunted flow but I digress.
Anders Andersen. I extend my love and my pity to you for a lost child hood and the nightmare you have lived through. Please have you sort counselling? I hope you are finding little joys in your days to heal the cuts on your spirit. My love to you all,
peace hugs live long and prosper...... it drives the self righteous nuts!