So dissappointed with myself

Stirred

Ugh. Saw an old JW friend this evening unexpectedly that I last saw months ago when i was just newly fading in old town. The conversation started focus on how the famiioy is all so busy with work and PIONEERING. I think I heard the word4 times in under a minute. I felt unease and frustration rising in me. Almost same rattle off I heard last time. It sounded like brag, brag, brag. I just spouted off, "Well, I am Not pioneering. I work. Yet I know Jehovah appreciates whatever I do. He never forgets what we have done and are doing and it is all appreciated even if we do not pioneer." Or, something close. i could see the other parties' lips tighten. Btw, we were at a COLLEGE and trade school open house. Kids were questioned when I wasn't present. I don't know why I was so upset but, driving home I was upset.....at not have better answers, not getting goaded by all the "we 're so righteous" talk, by letting it upset me in front of my kids. Pretty sure I won't be getting any invites soon. I was looking forward to it and now I don't want to put me through the inquisition and uneasiness.

i need to memorize some good responses to:

1. What hall are you attending?

2. Do you want to go out in service?

3. How to respond to ...brag, brag, brag, brag.......without getting upset.

Wish I could keep my cool better like so many on here do. I must be entering a new stage...anger? Resentment ?

DesirousOfChange

I'd be tempted to say that it's so great that none of them have been discouraged by all of the drastic changes in doctrine. Do they really, really understand and think that the "overlapping generation" is the real and final "truth" on the matter??? You know this is the 3 or 4th change in 15 years!! It's SO GREAT that they can all get their "heads around" the changes and accept them without doubt, since you know SOOO many that are murmuring about these things.

And of course, there is the huge increase in the number of anointed ones partaking. You know, I remember when the number of anointed ones getting smaller was always mentioned as a sign that we were getting closer to the end of this "wicked system of things". Well that ain't happening anymore. So what does THAT mean?

And then the F&DS is no longer all of Christ's anointed brothers here on earth? How did that happen? It was that was for almost 100 years and BAM! all these new guys change things as soon as the old guard die off? Is that scary? Are they right? Is the HS still working with them and all of these changes?

Is it any wonder that there are so many questioning things going on? Like sending all of our local building fund contributions into the Society? Weren't those "dedicated funds" for the new local KHall? Couldn't that bring trouble from the IRS? Brother Russell said if funds dried up that would be an indication that Jehovah was no longer blessing the Organization. I just wonder..............?

It's so scary. You know, I'm old enough to remember when apostates infiltrated Bethel all the way to the Governing Body!!!! There were lots of changes back then (the 80s) too! The Bible warns us about wicked men infiltrating the Congregation of God. It's SAD that it has affected so many people. Attendance is DOWN everywhere according to our CO. It's soooo SAD. How WONDERFUL that ALL of your family is unaffected by any of the negative things going on within the Organization. You know, Paul said he was also tested from within the Congregation. I guess that is happening today too.

Soooooo very nice to see you. Hugs to everyone.

Ta Ta

Doc

EndofMysteries

When they say, "I'm blah blah pioneering and pioneering" you can say, "That's nice, my mother and grandmother did that but since the end didn't come yet they needed help and Bethel and the brothers said we don't help members we just concentrate on preaching, ask your family for financial help, so I am going to college so I can earn enough to help them and myself, but let me know how that works out for you when your parents or you need more money later on, etc"

Jay Elle

Just look at them and say, "So?"

Scully

Don't get mad at them. Really, they have no other frame of reference to work with, it's all JW, all the time. They also don't have much else in the way of measuring success.

When I look at what our lives were 20 years ago, when we first started our fade, and compare that to what we have now, I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat. When I meet JWs that we were friends with back then, and realize that they are still doing what they were doing 20 years ago, living hand to mouth while Waiting On Jehovah™ - I feel sorry for them.

They're slaves. I'm free. And the saddest part of all is that they choose to stay in their chains.

FayeDunaway

Stirred: realistically, Ive learned the best thing is to say as little as possible. Smile and nod. Smile and nod. If someone brags about pioneering, think omg I'm so happy I don't have to do that ever again! Think .....SATURDAYS are wonderful!

Your response wasn't that bad tho, really. But You will have to harden yourself to little facial expressions others make and be less sensitive to what others think about you. It's worth it. Whatever competition you used to have with these people, what you're gaining is worth losing the battle with them.

it really freaking is.

sparrowdown

It is really difficult to swallow the irritation when you see one of them and their like, " we are so busy in Jehovah's service, brag brag, we are so blessed, brag, brag, I'm pioneering, brag brag blahdy blah blah.." the inference of course is "why aren't you doing more?"

FayeDunaway

You've got to realize they're so insecure about themselves.

Do not turn it into being about yourself. Smile and nod.

The service invite tho..,,yeeesh, that one used to make me nervous. I guess just reply 'sometime, can't think about it right now I'm too busy'

Hortensia

Kids were questioned when I wasn't present.

You mean that the JWs were spying on you by quizzing your children about your life? Jerks. Next time one of them starts asking you questions, go on the attack and tell them not to put your children on the spot. If they want answers they can ask you - not sneak around quizzing kids behind their parents' backs.
(I can't seem to turn off the quote thing . . .)

zeb

What did Jesus say about those who stand on street corners to make big of themselves.?

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