Yesterday, I watched my 9 year old son--healthy, beautiful, full of promise--play soccer with his team, as I do every week. He is a very happy secure child. Of course, as the proud father I was beaming. I thought to myself " Thank you God". It was a very impersonal, but sincere, "thank you"--to whom--I do not know.
I want to thank someone for my good fortune ( since I left JW) and like the Romans who built the Pantheon in Rome ( Temple devoted to all deities--just in case they missed one) I find myself offering a general "thank you"...to...whoever is listening. I do not know if this need "to thank" is a human response to be grateful, or if it is a last vestige of JW teaching--a ghost caught in the machinery of my mind. ( it is not directed to the name "Jehovah"; as that thought process was discontinued many years ago. But the concept of God; Creator; giver of life; etc.)
Somehow, this is all OK for me; I do not have the need to look any further religiously. I still say " thank you". And I am at peace with that simple phrase and concept.
Anyone else have similar feelings?