Welcome WeatherLover - nice avatar. I've often thought that baptism is the first step in leaving the organization because once the individual is baptized, there's a huge anticlimactic feeling and inside that feeling are the seeds of disquiet and disengagement. Once out of the baptismal pool, for many it is downhill pretty soon. Reality is like that.
Yes I agree with others who suggest you proceed very carefully. There is no urgency to sort stuff out - even though your JW mind might scream about the need to do so. Reality is messy and not conducive to being put in little boxes. Take your time - time is now on your side whereas when you were a JW it wasn't.
Keep in mind too that you are a well raised JW - your conscience towards family and friends is super-sensitized to not hurting them. That's a valuable trait to possess...for now - but if carried to extremes, would have you a marionette to their expectations of you for the rest of your life.
Because you're from a high-control religious group, you'll be highly affected by FOG (Fear, Obligation and Guilt). These controlling emotions have been subtly instilled into you over many years - they will not evaporate over night. Learn to be aware of them. You will learn that because something "feels" true, doesn't mean it is true.
Also, keep things in perspective: JWs are just one of many organizations that seek to control through fear and threat. You will surely know that there are groups "out there" that are even more draconian than JWs when it comes to pressure to conform and comply. In some religious groups (think Islam and Hinduism) to leave the group is to court literal danger in many countries. While JWs can treat you as though dead, the last time I checked they weren't allowed by secular law to do this literally. Phew!
So Welcome to our likely-bi weatherman. May your time here be stimulating and supportive and, yes, even challenging. It also sounds like you will be a valuable poster. Stick around.
