Freedom what is the title of the book?
It prob wont help though...Someone up there hates me anyway
Is Praying Begging?
by shamus 23 Replies latest jw friends
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sens
It says in the bible not to test God,
I give up...
(((blaid))) (((shamus)))
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czarofmischief
Obviously, sens, there are extenuating circumstances in which death is preferable to continued existence on this plane - I wasn't referring to those. I was referring to the specific example in which benjamin challenged God to prove Himself by killing benjamin - presumably a healthy young fellow with his whole life ahead of him (I understand he's 17, from what I've read). For someone with no great reason to die, to petition God for death, would be indicative NOT of a true death wish but of the need to have LIFE validated in some profound way.
Human relationships with God are complicated things, bb, so take your time. Plus, your age and the whole dub experience are fairly messed up things to begin with. 17 was a tough age for me, as well, and I didn't even have to break up with my religion at that time yet... hang in there, and keep your mind open. There is a great deal of positive experience in the world, even more than the negative.
Try asking God not to "kill you" but to reveal Himself to you. I bet if you leave His options open as to how and when, you will get an answer fairly soon. Maybe not in the way you expect, either. Just be aware that if something out of the ordinary happens, it might be an answer to your prayer.
It's not really begging, is it, if it's something you truly need and can't provide for yourself - which is validation of your life. It's just applying for something that is your birthright - your relationship with God.
Give it a shot - whenever you are ready. Doesn't have to be today or tomorrow, just sometime when you are feeling a little more settled inside. Remember, even human law doesn't hold younger people completely accountable for what they do or say - why should God?
CZAR
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sens
Obviously, sens, there are extenuating circumstances in which death is preferable to continued existence on this plane - I wasn't referring to those.
oh sorry misunderstood...sorry czar