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The important thing here is not to let your old life get you down... you need, and we all need to look ahead and forget that b.s. When we can't take those nagging thoughts in our head, come here, to the voice of reason.
True, you could go to a witness to get an answer... they would only blab about the bible and give you the usual scriptual crap that they vomit out like robots.
Remember, that Jesus said that all would know his followers if they have love amongst themselves. Which organization has the least love amongst themselves? I dare any person on this planet to show the that the witnesses are the most unloving bunch of people on the face of the earth.
They are self-rightcheous (I know, b/c I was one..).. we used to laugh about calls, thinking that getting people pissed off at us was funny. Pretty sick behavior. What ever happened to "love thy neighbour?"... what about letting pedophiles into congregations where the very children he molested are in there...
"no natural affection" and "Scribe and Pharisees" are terms that I use for them. They are people with very low self-esteem and lots of hate. I shall never ever forgive nor forget what they did to me. I am not bitter... just sorry. Sorry that I fell for it, and sorry that I treated people in the community like corpses. How sick!