Something isnt quite right.
Eric Hoffer said it best: Here, as elsewhere, the technique of a mass movement aims to infect people with a malady and then offer the movement as a cure.
I have not been fading; can only dream of doing so some day as my family and close friends are heavily in the JW world and I just cannot afford emotionally to part ways with them.
My only consolation is that knowing TTATT has helped me in lowering service hrs/quality, meeting attendance and other JW stuff without the guilt usually associated with it. Also, I've recently formed a network inside of kindred trapped spirits and it's easing the JW burden.
Indoctrination runs deep when JWs that brought me up are so entangled with the WTBTS. The state of mind of waiting for the other shoe to drop is unbearable at times.
DY I was just going by your bio where you say you are slowly fading. Sorry if I misunderstood you.