Flipper, I would have to watch again, but I recall that Leah said something along the lines of "If you don't get the language exactly right, members automatically say you don't know what you are talking about."
And I know that even "WE" don't always get the loaded language exactly right. We leave the celestial chariot and still use old terms like "presiding overseer" or we get behind on some minor teaching points, so we are seen as just bitter ex-members who didn't study.
Jeff, yes- "...to think I did it to myself...." That's what we are talking about. But we also want to realize that is the norm among cult members and our loved ones still in. We need to not be so hard on ourselves about this.