I was a JW for over 50 years and recently just stopped cold turkey going to the meetings. Years of sitting at the meetings with the boredom, the gloom and doom, repetition of doctrine, the gloom and doom, the fake love, the gloom and doom, the end being so close, do more - do more, just got to be too much for me to stomach.
I stopped praying to god and no longer thank god for the food before I eat. He doesn't give a rat's ass about people. How can I say that? In Revelation 12:9 it says: "The great dragon was hurled down--that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him."
The earth is just a mere speck of dust in the universe and with trillions of other places that God could have thrown Satan to, God chose to confine Satan's activity to where his dear children live, who by the way were created in God's image. I thought that god loved the world so much that he gave his only begotten son as a sacrifice. If you had three children playing in the backyard of your house, would you let a wild lion lose to see what happens? Perhaps you are testing your children as you tell them to run and hide and be obedient to your instructions to avoid being destroyed by the lion. If they didn't listen to you, oh well, maybe they will be resurrected.
For 6,000 years people have been dying, How much time does God need to prove a point about universal sovereignty? Every year 75,000,000 babies are born but thank god 56,000,000 people die each year for a net gain of only 19,000,000 additional people that will need to be murdered at Armageddon by God as his faithful JW's stand in the giggle weeds, or maybe in the bunkers, and rejoice that at last God is destroying 99.9% of the worlds population and in unison they all scream out with smiles on their faces, "See, we told you so!".
Every year that god delays in bringing the end, 19,000,0000 men, women and children must die. If he would have brought the end in 1975, close to 800,000 million people would not have been born who now have to die. That sounds like a lot more people than the "Cart People" have saved.
The reason I stopped thanking god for my food is every year 9,000,000 die of starvation. By thanking god for my food I am saying that he provided the food for me. Why am I so special? If you had three children and had the ability to give them food, would you let your dear children suffer the terrible death of starvation? I have food because I worked my ass off and have a retirement. The money that I earned buys the food that I eat. God did not give me food, Hard working farmers provide the food.
I could go on but I think you see where I a coming from.