I also want to say I am so sorry for what you are going through. Just know that many on this board are with you in thought and it is good advice that LisaRose said, please ask for help. People really do want to help but as she said they just don't know what to do and so many do nothing because they are afraid of intruding on you. Like she said all they can say is no, but at least ask.
My heart goes out to you.