Rockon, So sad that it is still a trend in the halls. So detrimental to the children and the families involved. Glad you could see the cryings of these children. The heartfelt loss of something so horrid. The devastating effects, the guilt.
Dannybear, you are right. We all do our best but we all must change in our own time.
CZAR, You bring up a good point. The guilt of it all. It was devastating. I allowed that guilt to ruin alot of years of my life. The guilt of my child, the guilt of not going to the hall and doing what i had been programed to do. The guilt of my divorce of not being able to save my ex from himself. The guilt of my father dieing, thought it was because I had not gone to the hall but had also posted the story. The guilt just kept compounding.
You take that guilt you work through and you use it to transform your life to what you feel it should be. It does make it better. You know where you came from and where you do not ever want to be again.
Thank you all for your posts. They are sincerely appreciated.
Cathy