Good-bye Jehovah (poem)

by SunnyOne026 17 Replies latest jw friends

  • SunnyOne026

    It has been several months now, since I learned TTAT and the shock and grief is slowly lifting, although some days are harder than others. After 40 years a devout believer I guess I should not be surprised that the transition has been challenging and the losses immense, and I am sure very many of you can relate to my struggles. I frequently read the posts on here and my heart goes out to all of you, who grieve and struggle each in your own way, and I wish all of you continued courage and peace. I also wish to sincerely thank everyone here who shares their experiences as well as links to interesting and/or important information. Your posts have helped me immensely.

    I am also currently getting help from a compassionate psychologist, who, although he is not an expert in cults, is trying his best to understand and support me. As well, I am continuing to do research on religion, cults, the Bible and ancient religions, as well as researching life from a scientific and archaeological viewpoint. At first I think I was looking for a solid set of beliefs to replace my former JW belief system, but the more research I do the more I realize that is not likely to happen for me (although I fully support any of you who feel you have found some new version of 'truth' that satisfies you). One of the hardest things for me to come to terms with was that Jehovah wasn't real and the Bible itself contains many "holes" that make it's validity questionable at best. (Of course, I in no way wish to discourage or offend any of you who still hold the Bible as sacred and accurate, and I respect your right to believe whatever makes the most sense to you.) I am not an atheist -- I still believe in some higher power or intelligent universe that brought everything into existence or at least guided the evolution of life on earth. This being said -- my concept of God remains vague and uncertain.

    I wrote this poem today and I decided to share it, since I think some of you could relate to it. I hope none of you will find it offensive, and I apologize in advance if you do. I welcome your comments.

    Good-bye Jehovah

    Bright, talented and only fifteen

    A writer or artist could have easily been

    I surrendered my dreams and relinquished my power

    To the Father the Son and the Holy “Watchtower”

    I discarded my sweetheart and most of my friends

    and worried my family would die in the end

    I went door to door with Bibles and tracts

    To spread the good news of dubious “facts”

    The God named Jehovah was real to me

    Like his son Christ Jesus, I strove hard to be

    I wanted to save the world with the “Truth”

    And lead them to fountains of eternal youth

    My motives were pure, but I was misled

    Fantasies and lies were the food we were fed

    All the prayers and the songs still haunt me like ghosts

    But saying “Good-bye Jehovah” is what grieves me the most

    For Jah was my friend and my guiding light

    I spoke to him throughout every day and night

    I believed that he heard me and truly cared

    Such faith gave me courage when I was scared

    Now I must let go of this burning belief

    Though I’m weeping and trembling like a falling leaf

    For I know too much and see all too well

    The road I was travelling was the path to hell

    So good bye now Jesus, Jehovah, Elohim

    If there is a true God, I’ve not come to know him

    I’ll take full responsibility for my own life

    The smiles, the tears, the joy, the strife

    Yet all is not lost for I realize

    There’s still love in my heart and light in my eyes

    I would rather live a life of quiet uncertainty

    Than be certain of empty promises that will never be

  • Lee Elder
    Lee Elder

    Well said.

  • Sour Grapes
    Sour Grapes

    Very nice. Thank you for sharing.


  • SunnyOne026

    Thank you, Lee Elder and Sour Grapes.

  • Diogenesister

    Fantastic. That's one of the best I've read on the subject of "loosing my religion"to coin a phrase. Thank you for posting!

    Here is my ( less than serious) effort:


    Farewell then,

    Je Ho


    Or Yahweh.

    Or maybe El.

    You took out a people for your name.

    Well, 2 actually. After the thousand years it will be 3.

    A serial monogamist are you.

    A god full of loving kindness....and trust issues, I think.

    I bid you adieu....A dieu.

    We were never sure what you name was, anyway.


  • SunnyOne026

    Thank you, Diogenesister. I'm glad you liked my poem. I liked yours, too! lol! Thanks for the chuckle.

  • Cimarrona

    Thank you for sharing!

  • SunnyOne026

    Cimarrona, thank you for reading!😊

  • dubstepped

    That was fantastic! I'm going to share it with my wife. She'll love it too. Very well done. You really captured the feelings of the journey well.

  • smiddy3

    That was a great poem sunny expressed very well the thoughts many of us have I`m sure.

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