Minimus, I think we were of the same 'circle'. You 'know' what I'm talking about.
I'm amazed to see 75 some hits to my post. I think it's very hard for some because they have never truly done all they wanted to, or were pressured to do. So in the back of their mind their is feelings of guilt and "they were right" or they just feel like a luzer in the eyes of these 'men'. But that is all they are is men.
I wonder just how many lurkers are reading that post. To this day, NO ONE will approach me or ask me 'where have you been'. It seems they find the "lame publishers" easy targets. They prey on the weak. But they don't quite know what to say to someone who was a peer. I have made little or no comment to anyone about how I feel and what my reasons were. So they would have to approach me blind. I think part of the problem is they would have to accuse a man of respect with no justifiable cause. Of course this has never stopped them in the past. But for some reason, with my lack of 'christian activity' and meeting attendance I'm not easy to talk to. I don't really know why, and I don't really care. It's more of an intellectual exercise more than anything I think.