When I lived in Southeast Asia, it was a humbling and sobering experience.
Coming from the comfort and general prosperity of Canada, then land in the Philippines, I can tell you, it changed my perspective forever.
I used to be such a firecracker, took so much for granted. Not anymore.
But, still...when you have this sort of awakening, that's good. It means you are conscious.
XW, made a good comment, and I'm with her there. That's when I got involved with volunteer work of some sort. I can sit behind this screen for hours, but I could donate an hour a week at a local drop-in centre for street people/mentally ill. Makes you, grounded.
Living in a poor country such as the Philippines, was the best thing that ever happened to me. It taught me more than any Watchtower or Awake ever did. It gave me a firm grip on reality. When you looked around at poverty and squallor to the degree that I did, made you wonder: god/God (where is he/she?) - no where to be found.
Aztec, I know how it is. But I am confident enough to say that I think you are the type of person who is awake in the best sense of the word. Good to see it, and well once things settle down, I'm sure you'll channel that consciousness towards something positive.