Well, its darn tough to let it go completely when its always being shoved in your face. Here is what I mean by that. When my husband and I get together with the friends he has had all of his life, it always gets me thinking, because where the hell are all my old friends? I DON'T HAVE ANY!!! They spend a certain amount of time talking about old times and I just sit there, because I don't have anyone to share my old times with. When we got married 8 years ago, he had scads of old friends there, did I? NO!!!
I am a woman without a past. Its like having amnesia or being from another planet. Or perhaps like just getting out of prison, as a matter of fact its alot like having been in prison. Everything was controlled and watched and I had no choices. Now I am out but all my friends are still in prison. I had a death sentence and have been released because I was never guilty, but my whole life was stolen.
I am not bitter 24 hours a day, but sometimes I am.