Has waking up ever made you physically ill?

by fizzle 24 Replies latest jw friends

  • Vidiot
    StarTrekAngel - "...I would also shake uncontrollably when having an orgasm, which made sex a bit difficult and scary..."

    Dude, that just means you're doing it right.

    And that, in fact, you're doing it really well.


  • Crazyguy

    Probably not waking up but knowing what you know and how your friends and family treats you and how thier stuck , gives me headaches

  • LevelThePlayingField

    About 3 years ago I found out about how the society was involved in the UN. That started me to wake up. I was very very angry. Told my wife and family about it and was very surprised that they didn't feel the same way I was feeling. Then I started quickly figuring out that they really don't want to know these things but are happy with the status of their religion and that's that for them. Then I found this forum and jwfacts and with in a year I thought I was totally awake. I was having a real hard time processing it all. I felt all alone. Then the ARC happened and at that point I no longer thought JW's were God's organization. Then about a year later I thought for about 2 weeks maybe, just maybe JW's have the truth and God is allowing these things to happen. But then I kept waking up more and more and found out they even had changed many key verses in the Bible to make their religion work for them, then I knew 100% that this isn't the truth.

    And actually I have been pretty happy and content since. It freed me really. Now when my wife and I go to the hall cause she's totally in and doesn't know I'm mentally out, it doesn't even bother me. In fact I look for the BS in each meeting and feel proud to be able to catch it all.

  • aboveusonlysky

    I woke up in 2014 and it took about 6 months, I was a very active elder and Pioneer so it was a lot to process.

    I got a tremendous pain in my foot and thought I had somehow fractured something but an xray revealed nothing, after two more episodes of the same thing both lasting several weeks it was eventually diagnosed as gout which didn't seem to make much sense. I was also getting migraines every few days, something I usually only get 2 or 3 times a year.

    After going on a holiday of a lifetime that included a visit to NYC I came down with flu on the airplane home and had a complete breakdown where I couldn't leave our house for about 3 weeks, I've never felt so physically vulnerable in my life.

    A nutritionist my wife worked for asked if I was under any stress explaining it is one of the leading causes of gout and illnessin general which really surprised me. I was put on a brutal diet for a month and started relinquishing my responsibilities which took about 6 months in all. The best thing I did was counselling every couple of weeks for about a year, I'm now completely inactive and haven't had any of the above symptoms for nearly 2 years now.

    I loved my faith and waking up was very painful for me both emotionally and physically but I wouldn't have it any other way, it's frightening what damage your mind can do to your body so my plan is to keep a healthy cult free mind.

  • Deltawave

    Hi all,

    Yes I became very ill indeed. I was hitting the gym 3-4 times a week and running a successful business while regular pioneering.

    However, a series of events lead me to consider both sides of the argument and take a peak at what apostates were saying. I read CoC and went to my elders for answers to the issues raised by the book and apostates.

    They gave me NO answers aand instead swore me to silence with the threat of a JC. I have too many family and friends to lose so I agreed.

    I also had a complete nervous breakdown, attempted suicide and become very ill.

    My whole world, my belief system and all that I had been raised to believe was a lie.

    I would never wish to be responsible for taking anyone's hope away, no matter how deluded that hope was.

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