I tried on at least three occasions, with the heartfelt support of sincerely concerned JW friends and family, to get back into my deeply missed spiritual groove.
As mentioned before in other threads, I was even allowed to comment, despite my appearance (very long hair and a full beard).
This is the first year I deliberately missed the Memorial. If you miss the Memorial, you are in an entirely new category of incorrigible and unrepentant lapsed members.
I miss my family and friends, but I have had to detach myself emotionally. I'm sure they miss me, too. . . .