I feel alot better today, and I am very glad I did go to "see" her.
Thank you all for the comments and hugs, and for sharing some of you all's stories with me.
I was on the phone with Big Tex last night and I started crying again.
My son was sitting next to me and was wiping my tears away while he was hugging me. That was very comforting for me to have him telling me everything was going to be ok. Kids are golden!!!!
Thanx again for taking the time to read my post and for responding.