Sorry it has taken a while to respond. I've been busy and I have a guest from out of town. But it is a beautiful morning in KC and since I rarely sleep anymore and everyone in the household is sleeping except for me and the cats who are having breakfast.....
Be glad you wake up, and it's simply that: a dream
Yes, I am glad that it is only a dream. But sometimes, in that in-between-period, it is hard to tell which is the illusion and which state I am in--asleep or awake. Heck it's hard for me to tell during the day sometimes.
Bless your heart, I really feel for you with the Armageddon dreams. I average 1 a year. They are always vivid. But in my dreams, I must still be a dub because I am not afraid for myself, only for others. Still the vision of "the hand of God" can be quite terrifying. Thank you for your offer to write and talk with you about my divorce. I may do that. It has not been easy and he is doing everything in his power to hurt me. It would seem that after almost 14 years, he would be tired of doing that. Ah well, not too much longer and I will not have to deal with him until next April for taxes.
Are you enjoying the forum? I hope that you are. Again, welcome.
No, my x is not a JW. He is a bloody Orthodox. He can lie, cheat, be abusive or whatever and all he has to do is go to the priest for absolution. As easy as going to McDonalds to get a burger. I guess if Christ is the correct way, he IS forgiven. If Budda is right though, I guess I will see his ass next life time. Oh lucky me.
Not because I didn’t want to leave, but because of how “wrong” it was to divorce
Yes, I have had those thoughts too. I gave my solemn vow. I kept it. He didn't. He told me last year that he thinks that the only reason he ever wanted me to begin with is because he thought I was gorgeous and I didn't want him. He liked the challenge, he said it was a domination thing. It took him almost 3 years of dating, but in the end, he "got the trophy" (direct quote) and I got the boobie prize.
With the stress of your divorce a lot of things will probably surface. Old beliefs. Old memories. Guilt. Doubts. I found it good to keep a journal.
This is so true. BTW, I have taken your advice and started a journal. A journal that includes my dreams and what I would like to say to him if I had the chance.
Can't go into more details now as I have to head for home, but tomorrow I'll sit down and write a little about some dreams I've had recently
I look forward to hearing some of those dreams. You are a splendid writer. It does not surprise me at all that you dream in Technicolour with Dolby Surround Sound.
Giants, vans and accordians. That was a cool dream. Thank you for sharing it.
And what about the ones' where you are jerked awake from a deep sleep with the ever real sensation of being yanked back into your body through the abdomen. That was weird. Not scarey, just weird.
I agree, those kind of dreams are weird. I always think that my soul must have been traveling when I have those.
I got your private message. I want to talk to you sometimes too. Your posts interest me. You have had an interesting life and I would like to hear more about it sometimes.
Thanks so much for your responses, everybody. They have helped me tremendously