: Did I turn my back on Jehovah's True Organization?
: Are there any of you out there that feel like you have a real personal relationship with God with or without religion in your life? Do you still call God Jehovah? Do you call him Jesus?
It's impossible to have a "personal relationship" with a God who is absolutely silent.
: The reason I am asking is because of something I cannot forget. When I was going through my emotional breakdown a few years back I prayed to Jehovah like I never prayed before. I must have been having a panic attack.
Jehovah never answered you, did He?
: I was so confused wondering if God even existed at all. I was in my room one night just thinking and thinking about my future and wondering what the heck I was going to do with my life.
Most of us wonder this. It's part of life. Get used to it.
: So I pored my heart out to Jehovah and I asked him are you really even out there? Who am I praying to? Prove you exist. I went on and on and told him everything I was feeling. And right after I said Amen
Good thing you used the magic word "amen." Otherwise, Jehovah God would have let your prayer fly right by him.
: I felt this unbelievable feeling of relief and calmness. I could not believe it I was so amazed! Never in my life did I feel such a sigh of relief!
This sort of thing happens all the time with we people. There is no evidence that it means "Jehovah" or any other God has decided to help us. It only means that we "feel good" after asking for help from that (or any) God.
: This is why I am posing these question to you. At the time I prayed this prayer I was inactive but was planning to go to the meeting at the urging of my family. I confessed everything to the Elders and was privately reproved. A few months later I left the KH for good. It has been four years now.
So far so good. After all, you were leaving a lying, deceiving, hateful, manipulative and self-serving materialistic Cult.
: I have been reading all these posts and trying to gather information myself about the Org. But part of me just doesn't want to let go for fear that they really are God's people. I know many of you are going to say that just shows how badly you have been brainwashed. I am not dismissing that either.
The facts speak for themselves. Do the WTS leaders speak for God, or do they not speak for God? They claim to speak for God. What do the facts show, and what do their excuses about their lies about those facts show? You're on your own on this one. I'm not your nanny. Nor am I your spiritual leader. You are truly on your own. Read the evidence. Read the facts. Make your choice. Only you will be able to live with your choice. Are JW's true Christians who show REAL love for each other, or not? Did you find REAL and unconditional love from them before you left? Would you find REAL and unconditional love from them if you questioned the doctrines and policies of their leaders in Brooklyn?
: I would just like to know what all of you think? I mean Everyone: Religious people Non-Religious people, Athiests, Agnostics, Everyone.
:Is it possible to have a relationship with God without religion?
Yes, methinks. Religion fucks everything up. ALL religions and belief systems fuck everything up. If God cares, go direct to God. Don't let some humans try to tell you how to do it, or what you have to do to do it.
Personally I think that if God exists, he's been on vacation in Hawaii since the dawn of man 3,000,000 years ago. So I cannot blame God for not answering my prayers. He's on vacation and probably won't answer his cell phone until he is ready to finish his vacation.
I hope this helps. I am sincere in my comments. And if you don't like my observations, may I play some beautiful music on the piano for you? I can do that.