First time

by Deke 40 Replies latest jw experiences

  • Deke

    Good evening all, this is my first time posting.. been reading and following for two years. My story will come soon.... but I want to say to all, thanks for all the meaningful, intellectual, honest, and insightful words!! It’s been an interesting 48 years of service to an organization! I’m free, thanks to you all!!

  • jp1692


    We look forward to your story.


  • Vanderhoven7

    Welcome Deke! I reiterate JP's sentiments.

  • steve2

    Happy to hear from you, Deke!

  • Perry

    48 years is a long time. Congratulations!

  • gabcol

    welcome to the group... we are happy to see you

  • DesirousOfChange

    Congrats on your "awakening"!

    Looking forward to more of your story!

    The greatest revenge is living a happy & successful life!

  • wannaexit

    WOW awakened after 48 years! this is amazing. Welcome!!

  • dubstepped

    Awesome! Welcome to your new life in freedom!

  • Exelder

    Welcome to the forum Deke.

    Your length of service was very similar to mine.

    Personally speaking, I felt guilt and shame about leaving initially, then sorrow because I was leaving my family and the only friends that I ever knew.

    Then anger set in, thinking about my wasted life. I am in my late 50's with no qualifications and crap job and no pension. I would have loved to have had the opportunity to go to university and who knows what kind of job I would have now.

    I am now at a stage of acceptance of my situation and a great sense of liberation (especially on a Saturday morning more field ministry and on Sunday, which used to be totally taken up with meeting in morning, lunch at the hall then ministry in the afterrnoon. I have got my weekends back. YAY!! The novelty never wears off ha ha )

    Despite all of that, I am determined never to be bitter. There were some good times and I had some very close friends who I loved dearly.

    I hope that you enjoy your freedom.

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