I hate this religion so much. I am still in it, unfortunately, but I don't know how much longer I can take it. Ever meeting I miss seems to make my wife more determined to "stay faithful" and "do the right thing".
I have been shocked, mortified, and finally had my eyes opened by the conduct of, not rank and file, but elders and CO's in what they do. I have seen a CO help a ministerial servant get rid of his wife, lie and delete elders to cover his slanderous comments. I have had an elder lie to my face about a life and death issue regarding one of my children. I have had elders neglect my family when they knew they needed a kind word, or any word at all.
To see how the dubs close ranks around a "faithful" one who is divorcing makes me physically sick to my stomach. I am speechless, which is rare. They are not just fooled, I am learning, but CHOOSE to keep their eyes closed because it is easier than to look at a world that is not in line with what they expect.