Dare I ask? What do you have in mind when you state, "...they have given me prime examples of what it should NEVER be or be about. "? Durn color selector. I guess I'm in red now.
I personally reject the entire concept of Jehovah. I won't go into details, eyeballs will be rolling around the world if I do that one more time. Let me just offer the wisdom of Lao Tzu, "The God you can name is not the eternal God."
What you appear to be trying to do,one foot in and one foot out, will likely become more difficult as you learn more and more about the duplicitous behavior of the borg. I hope this board brings you the welcome respite you will need to vent your frustrations as you make your journey.
I think it takes a lot of courage just to post here in apostateland. So, congratulations and welcome to the forum. Hope to hear more from you soon. Just a little favor though......nix the red....it is kinda hard on the eyeballs!
I hope my stolen picture turns out. That is just sooooooooo cute!
Oh! And I sat on the fence for several months.....to the massive irritation of a couple of posters who will remain nameless In retrospect, I think I was just being obstinate. Some would say stubborn - but I stubbornly disagree with that.
You'll get no prize for climbing off the fence....but you'll gain freedom if you take your time, read, think, discuss & then make a decision.